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cancer [Jan. 31st, 2007|07:38 pm]
La Casa De Christine
Today, I found out my dad has cancer. He called at 4:59 pm expecting me to know the first time he said i said what but i had heard him. i told him i was sorry i began to sob siliently i asked him how far along it was he said the early stages i told him that was good. i didn't know what to say even now in that moment in that instant i felt a million things and couldn't verbalize one. it was quiet on the line for a long time he said i love you bye i said the same. This is a weird feeling. like sadness all the time with spurts of crying like spontaneous combustion. I'm more worried about my mom. I realize that all i was trying to do was think of things to ease the pain but maybe she needs to just feel it. We always try so hard to shield those we love from pain. I feel a sense of reosolve that maybe this will be the catalyst to true forgiveness with my father. i dunno i hope so i need to clean up now though.
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[User Picture]From: xsavethehero
2007-02-02 03:25 am (UTC)
oh christine, i am so sorry. i love you. i am glad you are a strong fabulous woman, so that i know you will be fine. my wishes are with you and your fam.
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