| Writer's Block: I'm Just Wild About... |
[Dec. 2nd, 2007|10:51 pm] |
film and music. acting. writing. creating really getting to be someone else. I guess just other forms of escapism really. If you took those things out of my life i think i'd be empty |
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| cancer |
[Jan. 31st, 2007|07:38 pm] |
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Today, I found out my dad has cancer. He called at 4:59 pm expecting me to know the first time he said i said what but i had heard him. i told him i was sorry i began to sob siliently i asked him how far along it was he said the early stages i told him that was good. i didn't know what to say even now in that moment in that instant i felt a million things and couldn't verbalize one. it was quiet on the line for a long time he said i love you bye i said the same. This is a weird feeling. like sadness all the time with spurts of crying like spontaneous combustion. I'm more worried about my mom. I realize that all i was trying to do was think of things to ease the pain but maybe she needs to just feel it. We always try so hard to shield those we love from pain. I feel a sense of reosolve that maybe this will be the catalyst to true forgiveness with my father. i dunno i hope so i need to clean up now though. |
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[Jan. 1st, 2005|01:49 pm] |
war waged, battle won. says:
happy new year
enitsirhc says:
thanks
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
hows things going?
enitsirhc says:
good and you?
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
good good.
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
whats going on with the band these days?
enitsirhc says:
good how's the photography going?
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
meh. i live in dauphin. there isnt much i can do here
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
haha
enitsirhc says:
hahh
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
how much would it cost to get you guys to come here?
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
if i hooked you up with some promo shots as well as part of the deal
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
im doing a show from crowned king on the 30th.
enitsirhc says:
sure
enitsirhc says:
ummm no t much
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
i dont know for sure as of yet.
enitsirhc says:
jsut enough for gas
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
im still trying to plan out the show.
enitsirhc says:
awesom bu we'd be more than happy to play
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
i will let you know though. just to know you are interested is rad though
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
i would love to see you guys play again and im sure you would go over fairly well here
enitsirhc says:
awesom we're always up for a good show
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
sweet.
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
ill totally see about it. i dont wanna start planning the show and screw myself over money wise
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
its a month from now though
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
so i got time
enitsirhc says:
ok awesome jsut let us know whn yo get more details
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
sweet
and then he asked me, did you shoot the man? i swear i didnt.. ok, maybe i did, but it was just for fun. war waged, battle won. says:
thanks |
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[Jan. 1st, 2005|12:44 am] |
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Everyone i wish you all the happiness i know you guys deserve. i wish you thaT ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE I KNOW I MAY BE REALLY DRUNK BUT THIS ALL COMES FROM MY LITTLE HEART THAT YOU GUYS HAVE AN AWESOME YEAR AND PROMISE ME THAAT YOU WILL STAY THE SAME BECAuase honestly i would not have it any other way. I love you all!@!!! |
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[Oct. 24th, 2004|12:21 am] |
Hello Hello so this was my weekend
Thursday- we had our show at the attic it was pretty fun. Our set was alright not the best but ok. I went to to moxies and hooligans after and got hit on my 30 year old icelandics ewwwwwww and then jess, paloma and bex slept over
Friday-we were supposed to do photos but instead me jill and ash and sam went to the attic for food and to go see i <3 huckabess
icck i'm too tired to write all the sttuf right now later |
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[Oct. 18th, 2004|08:18 am] |
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| | underoath, coltrane motion, revel in the morning | ] |
I've decied i haven't wasted enough time on this horrid machine, so here i am updating more.
Friday: I went shopping with Cara and Fez(Paloma) at the mall for Fez's winter boots and winter atire. I also ran into jen, chelsea and elise at the mall. We then went to go see team America which was a funny movie. My evening was catered by Taco Time and Famous Players
Saturday: Me, sam, bryce, ashley and dj went to the village of osbourne and postered some and looked for the mysterious steel capped and failed. We then went to baken expections where me and dj split a soup and veggie burger and fries. The soup was sooo gross and i tried to make it better but according to dj i made it "too sweet" i just have a strange addiction to sugar so anyways afterwards ashley left and we went to my house and we watched the ending of mean girls (sam had only seen the beginning)and then dj returned and we decided we would go take individual pics in the st.b cemetary. This was not the smartest idea because it was soooo fooken coold like holy shit.
Sunday: i dodged doing anything and did nothing then at 9 me and my bro bro went to go see a cindrella story (don't laugh)and i was impressed bravo to disney in creating a highly plausible story of a girl ( played by hil duff) of a girl down on her luck just searching for herself and a dream. A dream of going to princeton and meeting a guy she met in a princeton chat who just happens to be the school hottie. This my friend's is why so many girls get believe internet chat pervs because movies like this would make one believe that the guy you met in the chat is chad michael murray. Also did anyone notice that the hot guy and bitchy mean girl were played by the exact same people who had the exact same roles in freaky friday... Just me ...? ok ... understandable. anywho. i've wated enough time and need to study so ciao. |
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[Oct. 18th, 2004|07:57 am] |
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So, i got up early to study for this test i had and guess what i ended up doing. Yup you guessed right i ended doing nothing on my computer instead. Here, i am updating my lj i don't even update my lj but i'm doing everything i can think of so i don't have to study. Why? i have no clue probs b/c i have a procrastination problem. I hope i spell that right |
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[Oct. 11th, 2004|02:47 pm] |
So, today is Thanksgiving. And everything is tip top.
I have had mashed potaters, hopefully have pumpkin pie and tiramusu. :D
i just finished a really good book called the perks of being a walflower. I highly highly recommend.
Also, the new buried in denmark mp3s should be done soon according to Alex
I also got my retreat pic developed i shall put some on here when i find out how |
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[Sep. 25th, 2004|06:24 am] |
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Well, i haven't updated lately.
-I'm a senior now, it's now as scary as i expected but i have to say there is a verh hughsy 80s happy go lucky feel to it.
-we recorded the rest of our demo like last week it went well expect i was a suck fest.
-i go to my first high school football game today :)
-i have formal in november and no date as of yet so....:(
-i have a grad non-date date so i'm guranteed to not go all alone :D
-i turn 18 this next year :S i feel like i just turned 14
-before i end my last year of high school i plan on doing ever single clique experience |
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[Aug. 8th, 2004|12:44 pm] |
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3 MORE DAYS TILL ONTARIO WOOOHOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[Jul. 31st, 2004|01:26 pm] |
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i hope ten years from now when you try to reach me i can inflict a fraction of the pain you caused |
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[Jul. 18th, 2004|02:28 am] |
Today, was kinda crappy. It sucks because it was my only day off this week oh well. So, now i'm sitting at home eating frozen pizza and watching tv, isn't life wonderful. |
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[Jul. 10th, 2004|02:17 pm] |
In the last 24 hours have you...
1. cried?: no
2. bought something?:yah
3. gotten sick?: no
4. sang?: hell yeha
5. eaten?: yeah.
6. been kissed?: no
7. felt stupid?: well yeh
8. wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't?: no not really
9. met someone new?: kinda.
10. moved on?: from?.
11. talk to an ex?: sure why not
12. missed an ex?: nooooopee
13. talked to someone you have a crush on?: no :(.
14. had a serious talk?: kinda
15. missed someone?: Yeah.
16. hugged someone?: No.
17. fought with your parents?: no.
18. dreamed about someone you can't be with?: doesn't everyone
social life:
1. best girl friend: sure
2. best guy friend: sure .
3. boyfriend/girlfriend: no.
4. if no, current dating partner: no.
5. hobbies: yeah
6. pager: no
7. are you center of attention or the wallflower?: my life is as a walflower
8. what type automobile do you drive?: a ugvan
9. what type automobile do you wish you drove?:the mystery machine and a vintage mustang
10. would you rather be with friends or on a date?: hmmmmm date i guess
11. where is the best hangout?: Your face .
12. do you have a job?: i have a few 2 regular and 2 other on call ones .
14. do you like being around people?: every now and then
who:
1. have you known the longest?: my mom
2. do you argue the most with?: i tend not to argue but if i had too chose my ass bro i guess
3. do you always get along with?:lots
4. is the most trustworthy?: i find jill quite of trust
5. makes you laugh the most?: a few
6. has been there through all the hard times?: no one
7. has the coolest parents?: i dunno .
8. has the coolest siblings?: hymmmmmm....
9. is the most blunt?: chelsea
10. is the smartest?: i dunno book smart or life smart?
personal:
1. who is your role model?: i'd say it but i'll sound dumb
2. what are some of your pet peeves?: lots
3. have you ever liked someone you had no chance with?:frequently
4.have you ever cried over the opposite sex?: who hasn't
5. do you have a "type" of person you always go after?: no "types" leave no room for surpirse
6. have you ever lied to your best friend(s)?:yeah
7. ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you?: yeah but revenge is too much energy and kinad hurtful.
8. would you rather dump someone or get dumped?: i am the dumpee i don't think i could ever dump someone
10. do you want someone you don't have right now?: i have somene i want who i don't have but it's not like i love them it
s a teeny crush actually a few teeny crushes
11. ever liked your best guy/girl friend?: your mom
12. do you want to get married?: yeah
13. do you want kids?: yeah
14. do you believe in psychics?: sure why not .
15. do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time?: i sure as hell hope not .
16. what is your favorite part of your physical appearance?: nothing
17. what is your favorite part of your emotional being?: nothing .
18. are you happy with you?: hopefully one day .
19. are you happy with your life?: hopefully i will be one day
20. if you could change something in your life right now, what would it be?: yeah tons, if i had to change anything i'd be far far away and i'd be doing what i really want to do... |
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| You........ |
[Jun. 28th, 2004|01:42 am] |
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can never hurt me as much as this city has |
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| I know things will get better |
[Jun. 20th, 2004|10:29 am] |
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Well, I haven't written anything in here for a while. Lately things have been ....different . I know i'm changing i honestly feel more mature more older and i don't even mind it. I used to spend a lot of timing worrying about changing and now that i am it ins't that scary. One more year of school and i get to leave this all behind me. I know i should feel like i'm gonna miss people but i don't know if i will. I don't think anyone will miss me. I know i have one more year still and that my plans could change but everyday i want to move more and more. |
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| Summer here i come |
[Jun. 16th, 2004|09:30 pm] |
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Well tomorrow is my last exam and i can't wait till all the madness is done,and after my exam i go for sushi well i guess veggie sushi with cara and co. and after that i have work. I work all this weekend every god damn day but i guess it will be worth it. Tomorrow, jess leaves for portugal she'll be there 5 weeks which is shitty but hopefully i'll be going with her next year. My goal this summer is to make as much miney as possible for after graduation. It's crazy to think next year i'm going to graduate. |
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[Apr. 28th, 2004|06:41 am] |
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Well,today was weird i woke up and i came down to check the time and i thoguht it said 6:57 so went and showered and it turns out that it was 5:57 so i was pissed that i could've slept more...well,today i get blow from margs isn't that fucken awesome she's just onna give it to me..i'm so excited for it...i noticed thata large number of my fave movies are about drug trafficking whichis kinda funny. oh yesterday i went to go rent desperado and a bunch of other movies and the stupid place didn't have it but they have the independent 7000 dollar spanish film by the same director. :0 how stupid..they didn't even have pulp fiction what an insult. I realized lately that me and margs have very similar tastes in movies so in the summer or early next year we are going to do a film and enter it into a festival.. it should be good times and this weekend we start working on their campaign. |
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[Apr. 15th, 2004|10:10 pm] |
I would like everyone who reads this
to ask me 3 questions
no more
no less.
Ask me anything you want
and I will answer.
Then I would like for you to go to your journal
copy and paste this allowing your friends
(including myself)
to ask you anything.
I am such a follower...but I am bored so ask away! |
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[Apr. 14th, 2004|04:58 pm] |
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| | jamison/parker anthem of the broken hearted/dead to the worl | ] |
i hate this thing, i hate a lot of things right now. Maybe this was all a crisis of faith, i can honestly say that right now i don't know what i want or what i don't want. but i won't make the mistake i made before. no. confusion can't last forever and every thing will fall into place i guess. mistakes are so easy to make especially when you don't know where your heart is. for now i'll leave all doors open and the ones that close will close on their own. for now i'll kick and screan on the inside |
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[Apr. 11th, 2004|02:08 am] |
Well, tonight was our show we did good.. for some strange reason i left soo bad and i even started crying and jsut spend the rest of teh show biting my tongue trying not to cry, i dunno even know why i was crying it was quite crappy but watching buffy was kick ass good ole gr. 7 hahah such a good episode
HAPPY BDAY SAMM!!! |
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